Being a single mom is pretty much what I thought it would be - hard, tiring , and amazing with alot of worry mixed in. You can read all the books there are but you can only be prepared to a certain extent, even with someone to help you I'm sure. I really don't even know/remember what I did before Aislyn was here. It still surprises me you can love one little person so much.
I am worried about mom, I hate to see her sick and theres nothing I can do to make it better for her. Its an awful helpless feeling. We go to Duke in about 2 weeks, so we will know more then and hopefully they will be able to do something for her to give her some relief.
I am losing my appetite again, fast. I am worried now that I won't be able to breast feed as long as I'd hoped if this keeps up. I am going to try mothers milk and just keep taking my vitamins so hopefully everything will work out.
My little Paige is still here with us, I think for another week or so. I love having her here. She is growing up so fast, changing so much right in front of me. I just wish we could hang on to her innocence a little longer. She's still so young, just 9, but she seems to be changing into a preteen much too fast for me. I know they can't stay 5 forever, but wouldn't it be nice? Her hormones seem to be kicking her diabetes into overdrive. We all manage it the best way we know how but it's still something I worry about all the time - even though we've been doing this since she was 2 years old.
The baby is waking up! I will post again later when I get some time :)
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