Since I got pregnant, I've read all kinds of books on pregnancy, the first year, you name it I probably read it ( or atleast looked at it lol). They were really helpful in alot of ways, it helped me feel more comfortable about becoming a first time mom for sure, I felt more prepared.
But the things the books don't tell you like how tired you're going to be, how hard it is to be a single mom & how many times you'll doubt yourself. They don't tell you that for 3 months ( and counting ) you're going to walk around in an exhausted haze worried all the time that you haven't done enough. They try to prepare you for things like feedings, colic, all kinds of issues that could creep up on you, and in a way they do. They help you know what to look for as much as a book can. They cannot however, tell you how devastating that little baby's cry will be to you on the nights when you've tried everything and nothing seems to work, when you bounce , you walk, you sing , you drive. They don't tell you that sometimes you just have to cry too. Sometimes you have to take a few minutes for some mommy time, because mommys need to cry too. Your hormones are off the charts, you're exhausted and overwhelmed, and you need to stop and breathe.
Just Breathe.
I have a totally new kind of respect for my mom, as well as everyone else's, especially single moms. I don't think you can ever really understand or appreciate all the sacrifices they make and all the worry they go through for you until you have a baby, and I'm just getting started....
